"Yes! We're gonna paint pumpkins!"

Dink's on the left,mine is on the right.

alyssa's

Off work today.
Think Dink and I will hit the craft store and walmart.
If it warms up a bit..the park.

Lots of random things will come next..beware..lol.


I have to start all over on my fairy cross stitch..
I messed up on gridding so I tried to wash out
the gridding..I had used a red pencil that said it would wash out..
it didn't..just smeared a bit..looked sorta a greasy smeared red mess.

I was very mad..so now, I have to start over...but not on pretty fabric.
Plain white fabric..but I think I'll like that better..the fabric I did have was too
dark IMO. I'll have to pick up my ole' faithful water soluble pen today and
regrid..then I can start over..this time I think from the top...

Hmmm what else?
My shop. Sales have been slow to none. I get one two days ago..
no payment yet..waiting.

I was thinking about just restitch a few things and bring my stock back up
but then again..sales are done all around.
I don't want to spend a ton of time making a bunch of Christmas and winter things
if they will just sit there. I have last year's stuff..Halloween too.

Ok Dink has just announced his butt itches and I need to attend to it..

ahh the joys of toddler-isms.

Most of you know my husband is Korean.

Tomorrow marks the Korean thanksgiving

or Chuseok.

if you want to read more..as I am very interested in ready other cultures..

you can read more [here]

My goal this week..Loose the 4-5  lbs so I can get out of the 170s!

I have actually did a lot of menu planning so no last minute

"OMG I'm starving..I'll just eat what you are having"

which is usually NOT low carb.

2 out of 3 meals have been great..
just that last..late night meal (thanks to hubby) is bad.

like him bringing pizza home..
or him bringing me chili cheese nachos home from 7-eleven..

so I've done really well all last week but skipped meals due to
work schedule..etc..
so now..I'm armed w/ a Fab menu and groceries so I'm all set!
I work everyday but 2 days this week which will be spend at the park
running with Dink.

Weigh in on next sunday..wish me luck!

oh and that may seem a lot but on Atkins..4 or 5lbs a week is normal..
and healthy. Fat burning for energy instead of carbs.

Ok so after I picked up my boy from the temp sitter that a friend had recommended. She said she more than likely isn't getting that job and her and her husband were talking and she wants to just stay home and do daycare. Sweet! She's nice even though not licensed.. she was recommended by a friend that's as close to family as a friend can be. (she watched babygirl since practically birth..lol) She only charges me the days I need her..only a few days a week. She did crafts w/ him yesterday.. the only downside is she doesn't watch any other kids yet.. so Dink has no one to play with but her..he was crying off and on both days..but I think he'll be ok..she does things with him and it will be just like when I stayed home with him.. no other kids..but he had fun doing things, watching tv, playing his gameboy..lol So I think I'm going with her. I need to take Dink to the doc to have a form filled out for the actual daycare and with no insurance it will cost $90. I think I'll stick with this other lady and see how it works out, let the daycare woman know I'm having issues w/ getting a doc appt so it will give me another week to test out the unlicensed woman. I also got to thinking.. being stressed and down..won't help me at all. Back to my old chipper self

f!

I'm having a really hard time.
I want my old life back.
Like back to when we were in Va.
I love being back in maryland closer to my family.
But, when we lived in Va...hubby worked.
We had a nice place. I stayed home w/ Dink
and we had a nice apartment. I was home to let Babygirl
in after school. I could cook a nice dinner and we all ate together.

Now..Hubby and I both work retail. We live in his mom's
2 bedroom basement. We have our own bathroom but share a kitchen.
Both kids in the same room.

True..I can buy a new car now since we are both working.
True..I do like my job.

But..daycare..sucks. Too expensive and when adding in my car payment..
i have little left.
Hubby's making good money..but I just don't see the light at the end of the tunnel
so to speak.

When are we going to be able to get our own place?
are we going to rent or buy? Can we afford either?
We never see each other and working out
babysitting w/ both our jobs..tough.

I've not been happy w/ anyone I've interviewed so far to watch Dink.
Mabye I'm too picky.
Maybe I just want to do it myself.. and not work.
But I know that's NOT an option.

I'm very sad..and frustrated..and feel like giving up.
But I know I can't..and won't.

So I keep on keepin' on.

And that's the best I can do.
Smile on the outside..
but inside..I'm a mess.

omg. i bought a car.

a hyundai accent 2009

it's nice..i'll post a photo

soon..

it's been storming here.